Think Ink

When walls close in
And you’re reminded of your every sin
World turns its back
And friends walk away
Ever by your side I’ll stay
When tears race down your face,
Heartache slows down your pace.
When refuge is nowhere near
And lingering darkness evokes fear,
Don’t be afraid, I’m right here.
When your heart goes numb
And to self-pity you succumb.
Raging storms rock your boat
And you have none of all you sought,
I’ll be there, even if I’m all you’ve got.
Through your good and the bad,
When you’re happy, when you’re sad
When they walk away, I’ll stay
When there is fear, I’m right here
And when you have in this world nothing
I’ll be there,
I’ll always be there.

What's with the questions
Where are you?
See when you are in darkness
Away from His brightness
You can't answer this question
Coz you don't know your location
What are you doing?
(O what a dumb question
But this I would not loudly mention)
Coz monkey is so bananas eats
And so sinner is so sin breaths, thinks and eats
Don't you think it's time to come home?
Don't you think it's where u belong?
For Me don't you long?
These questions at me he aims
Continues to do so ever so relentless
My sleep He cuts short and convinces me of my crimes and sins and I know I deserve a mugshot
And so I drown my conscience with a Klipdrift shot
Drunken still I feel Him waiting and so I have started running
In cheap motels and crowded brothels I'm found
I keep running
In dark clubs feeling cloud nine
I'm running
In my dark corners I think I'm safe and sound
I pause the running
As soon as this thought settles His presence I feel
And so to my legs again I appeal
Continue running
My body in fatigue cries and its tears run down my face as sweat
Panting louder I'm running
In the city's concrete caves I'm hiding
Committing great crimes Him ever shunning
I'm running
Body about to give in
``Mind over matter `` to myself I'm preaching
With loud music His voice I'm silencing
In my ways forever menacing
Short breaths now but still running
In moments of clarity I feel His meekness
My stubborn mind refuses and shouts`` To give in is to confess weakness ``
Strides shorter but still running
I feel the music of His voice sync with my heart beat
I stop running
All faculties of my mind in ecstacy
Leaping for joy and in praise but not carelessly
I have stopped thinking about running
His Fatherly Providence causing me to search for life's essence
With His Divine brush repainting my life picturesque
Remove all filth and desires grotesque
Molding me to echo His beauty
So now I regret ever running...

Do i do it right?
Do i just conform cause its what i found?
Cause its what they say?
Never what they do
Cause they schooled me in that thought
Taught me the forms and formalities
Looking for that joy
The hop in my hip
The redbull feeling
The song that plays
Joy like the soil as i remember that it is what He used to make me
That close walk
My hand in His hand
Clasping tightly as He leads the way to His everlasting
The joy of our feet dancing together to a song i didn't know
I really didn't know the joy that causes happiness to stand in its true light as a verb
How do i get closer?
How do close the breach?
Cover the abyss?
Clothe myself in His robe yet never take it away from Him?
Sounds easy when you think about it,but the kingdom of God has always been about doing anyway
So how do i do it?
How do i conform because i am converted?
How do i become truly His?
Belong like a wife
Submit and respect
How do i attain His love worthy?
For so far i have been getting it when i do not deserve it
How do i begin to walk the way He would i walk?
How do i begin to show Him i do love Him,i just fail to show it?
How do i go about it?

Pacing up and down the streets of the never resting city center
Searching for one thing that will catch my eye
Excite my mind
Have me drawling over it for days
Then it comes crawling
Crippling my calves
Cutting through my marrow, leaving it cold and Dry-Lifeless
Paralyzing my pelvis
Heart palpitating
Mind now contemplating
All my life’s wrongs.
I fall helpless to my feet
Its emptiness...
An abyss so deep my heart cannot contain
Ahead I see a fulfillment I cannot obtain
My arm too short to reach
Breath too short to call
Upwards I start to fall
A river beyond its boundaries is released
My tear calls, tears reach, tears rescue…
Neck stiff, eyes blinking away life’s last moments, lo
Behold, lo and behold fulfillment
My hand reaches out and It is reached
His feet I reach and I am reached
Tears my sin bridged
His love my heart has caged
Binding His will to mine
An insignia of an eternity of bliss
At his feet is where I belong
My place of serenity and sanity
My place of strength, restoration and the finding of my true purpose
I am called His follower because I stay at His feet, study His footsteps
I am called a leader because, His feet that pave the way are my constant focus
At His feet one finds the fulfillment of servanthood
The pleasure of childhood
And the benefit of brotherhood...
At His feet

I step up to the Golden podium splendour
Slim fit suit pressed
Black hair with a comb neatly caressed
(clears through) ``in this life I'm set, slight misstep and in a quick step I'm back on track``
``whether the news man cries and says the markets are up or down, I keep sitting sideways sipping something nice enjoying every gulp ``
``wen life gets too uncertain, I get my bull and bear spreads and set up butterflies and keep life colourful``
``to some that may b a mouthful
but simply put I'm insured ``
`` I have life by the horns and with its delicacies I'm clothed ``
You rich fool
Eyes pacing the stadium I'm frightened
He begins
``o rich fool
U don't have a clue
Living this life proud
wise in your eye living the devil's lie``
``I crowned you with glory and honor ``
`` This world has you in confusion``
`` insurance, outsurance``
How about My blessed assurance
In this life you say you are set
but your eternal life is in a sorry state
Apply heavenly mathematics and u will see wat u shall be
It will transform your life, take you from point A to B
`` Bbbbut Father, what is this mathematics ``
Gladly He says ``work on the gospel of addition and multiplication``
``u do the addition I do the multiplication ``
``you do the easy part and I will do the harder part ``
`` By my Spirit add on good works, charity and integrity and I will multiply the little that you do``
``this is the gospel of addition and multiplication``
Be square rooted in your faith
Learn to differentiate sin from benevolence
Subtract evil works and malevolence
Integrate mercy into your life
Understand that you plus me = all you could ever dream to be
Continue with this basic mathematics
Add me into your life and I will multiply all blessings in your life
365 24/7 I wish you were with Me here in Heaven
All I ask is accept My Son and leave the pharisee's leaven
But Lord I pay my tithe and avoid the tavern
But son know that going the distance
May not necessarily make a difference
That coming this close may not b close enough
Give up all and not al-most
Otherwise at My Son's coming all your hope might be lost
At My Son's coming don't let the scales find u wanting
Simply because you lacked one thing...

Weak, easily tossed by the breeze of sweet words
I tap my feet to the forbidden tunes of ecstasy
I nod my head to the call of impurity
Clap my hands celebrating the triumph of abominations
Chaste,yet the lips of seductive speech have i kissed

I bend my knee to the love of self
Lord Help this tempted soul of mine
But He has promised to keep.... keep me .? how does one keep something that He has not..

I am flesh
Can these faculties that are enmity to the law of God be made noble
How shall it be done
I question because my finite my mind cannot comprehend the infinite measures employed to win my heart
Love so undenialable
Grace so unexplainable
Intimacy redefined
He Calls me His second heart beat
Such affection, where can we find
I may paint it in a thousand shades
Say it a million words
Bottom line Is :
I am sinful, vile in need of a Savior
He is God and is labouring intensely for my Salvation
He's a Good Father ,its who he is
And I'm loved by him ,its who I am
My existence is defined by his endless love